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dream diary

a bunchof dreams and nighmares ive had + moodboard things inspired by them bc dreams are so interesting to me in every way ever. more people should post their dreams so i can read them. anyway if some of these are unintelligable its bc they were written in my phones notesapp at like 3am plspls. the moodboards are kind of recreations of how they looked in my head as good as i can recreate them. the scary level explains itself. thank uu

scarryy music oohh

i found this in my tumblr drafts from 2023 pt 2

scary level - 0/12

had a rlly weird dream last night where me and l bestfriend were lead rolls in the new scott pilgrim movie (i have mever watched or read that series idk where that came from) he was scott and i was whatever his pink hair girlfriends name is but we werent like wearing costumes. and i knew that i asked the director a few times likw “why areny we dressed as the characters” bc we literally just looked like ourselfs and wore our own clothes.. he refused to answer me for some reason though so i literally dont know what tgat was. but anyway we were in a huge building in like paris or something and there was a place next to us that abunch of ppl went in and out of alot ifk what it actually was but He went there and would always watch me while i was actung and i would look at him too and it might have been some kind of school bc i think he was in like a uniform but i dont really remember. he never talked to me though he just like watched me sometimes and i would be like “wow”. thats all i remember thou

i found this in my tumblr drafts from 2023

scary level - ??/12

i had a weird asf dream abt H thouh at the beginning he was like really french for some reason and also kinda skinner then he actually is and he randomlly started talking to me but he had to like half use google translate but then we were besties. and then inanother part of my dream he didnt look anything like how he does irl he had glasses and he was blonde and just looked completely different but somehow i still knew it was him?? and even in the dream i was like “um why does he look like that”. idek bruh what does that mean like ik theres some message behind that

message i sent to bestfriend1 at 5 in the morning

scary level - 900/12

the whole thing was like real life so nothing was crazy or unusual but everything was going wrong for me like everything. all my friends hated me i had a job i didnt like and everything was horrible and bad. and then at the end you were calling me and you sent me a video of M saying smth idk what but it was like flirting so i was like "um how did you get that" but you just kept singing and being silly and ignoring my question and i was like "im not kidding where the fuck did you get that." and you sent like 90000 messages of you and him talking like being baed up and you were like "yeah i love him!" and i hung up and i think i killed myself after

pillow game

scary level - 0/12

i was playing this online game that was like looking at peoples dreams? i think? it was a multiplayer game so there were other people, and every so often the world would randomize and you could just explore each one. kinda like regretavator but i dont think there were any actual minigames or anything. it was really light and pastel, and all the avatars were these soft roundish pillows with gen1 mlp looking ponies on them? you could customize your avatar, but it was always a pillow. and it wasnt shaped like a pony either they were all the same shape but with different ponies on them. yk. but some of the worlds were really weirdly out of place, like a realistic convienence store? and thats also the only one that had any actual kind of gameplay. there was a gas leak or something, but you lost your sense of smell, so you had to walk around and look for a specific cloud. it turned all blue when you lost your smell, and the scents were like floating white particle effects that had names floating above them. i dont think there was any actual punishment for not finding it though. most of the other worlds were just like pastel fairytale forests after that, but in one of them we saw a kind of glitched really long avatar that was a part of the enviornment, and everyone was like "omgggg i cant believe we found it!!!" because it was like a really rare easter egg or inside joke in the community

wind and explosions

scary level - 8/12

and then right after that dream i had a dream where i was standing in my shower water off fully clothed on my phones notesapp? i was thinking smth abt not being able to get over H and then the wind got insanely unnaturally loud and i got out of the shower and went to my moms room and i was like "what is going on" and she just said "i think our house is going to explode" and i thought she was stupid and idiotic for saying that bc what does that have to do with the wind... but then like 5 seconds later our whole house was blown sideways by the wind and me, her, and my cat were just in the air. but i remember specifically i didnt scream or anything bc there wasnt a point and she half yelled like once.. and all i thought while i was falling was if my cat was going to be ok when he fell. and then i woke up by literally doing the thing they always do in movies after nighmares where you like sit up and gasp. embarassing

sweet videos

scary level - 1/12

this dream was just 4 very sweet little parts nect to eachother.. so the first one i barely remember but i was in the pov of this guy that was in love with the girl across the street from him, and everytime she would come to his house or something? maybe deliverr smth i dont really remember, his family would make fun of him for not confessing to her and they were all yelling at him but like in a silly way. and he was laughing. and the next one was a video where this girl was saying she was at her bfs house and showing us the popcorn she made, which was half regular popcorn and half like a blueberry slushy thing. and she said it was good but most of the blueberry stuff was still there so i kinda think she lied. but she was putting pieces of popcorn in the top of it to make peach flavored ones (never explained how this worked but i understood it in the moment) and halfway through the video her bfs sister came home from work and they laughed together. the third one was me playing roblox, i think with someone else but idk who and they left halfway through anyway #fake but the game was like flee the facility?? it might have been but with a new map (that was like an office building, kinda like that one mm2 map but with cubicals like that one prop hunt map. yk.) and i was getting so mad at this guy that was dressed as an ape bc he was TARGETING ME. and we wouldnt lesve me alone and i was yelling and mad untill i finally just left the game to spite him. monkey guy in roblox i am coming for you dont think i forgot you HOE. but the last one was the sweetest, it was a video of a guy that worked at a plant store showing succulents nobody wanted yo buy and why, and he was taking them in. he showed why they didnt sell and what was wrong with them, and then placed them in a line on a shelf. he looked kinda like that one commentary youtuber with a fishing hat that i cant remember the name of, or tuv. amd thats it

breaking and entering??

scary level - 1/12

i dont remember like half of this but dream and george like the minecraft youtubers (i DONT like them btw. i got out of my dsmp phase like middle of 2020) got their addresses leaked. and i just pulled up but i had to hide it from everyone that i hated them and that i was sharing information w people. but i think his brothers were there? or friends? idk there were 2 guys and then me and XXXXXXX that were exploring the houses and one of the guys i was either in love with or was just cool and the other one was weirdo scary. georges house was like a beachhouse on the ocean and which XXXXXX was living in?? idk why. it was never rlly explained. but dreams house was like giant apartment with little graffiti of him on the stairs and all the walls were like black and light green. and thats all i remember

this one is insanely long im so sorry

scary level - 4/12

i just left my house one day and started walking untill i reached this city i guess. but it wasnt tht far away i didnt have to walk for that long but i went to this thrift store that was for like a church byt everything in it was bad. it had like medical diagrams and weird childrens books. so i left and then when i was walking i tedted my dad “im gonna be out for awhilw” or smth and i was outside a wendys btw. and when i looked up what i typed was on thw wendys like sign. and i was like “oh my god what” andni typed smth else and it showed up and i took a picture of it happening and then a worker guy from inside came oyt and brung me inside bc he thought i was doing it on purpose ig. and qhwn i got inside all of the workers were there and there was a goth girl, the guy who got me who was just like a skinny guy with brown hair, and a kinda emo clown girl with blue hair and they were asking me why i did that and i was like “idk idk it just happened plspls” and they beleived me and were so nice and the goth girl said “we didnt want to go out there because we thought you would be difficult” and then i was jusy like there. for a bunch of hours. just hangibg out ig and then kinda late at night i facetimes my dad but ally was there too for some reason? like i didnt call her but she kust showed up in the facetime but i was like “guys im ok im just in this wendys with these ppl” and the clown and goth girlwere being goofyness inthe background to embarass me and the brown hair guy was just looking over my shoulder and my dad was loke “erm pk” and ally had her camera on facing towards a computer camera with her on it?? idk how to dxplain it but then i had to go home and i said goodbye to everyone and i was like “ill come back to visit you!!” and they were all waving amd then suddenly i was in minecraft. like the outside of the store was minecraft and i said that they didnt have to worry bc i saved the coords of the store. but we were still like human. nobody talked abt this change it was just like normal. but the brown hair guy was just coming with me ig so we started walking and then it starged thunderstorming. and yhere were these like minecraft storm clouds that you could get on and ride ig so we did and my house was a gingerbread house on a cloud island in the sky whoch was also never mentioned before. how tf did i walk to the city. but anyway after we figured out how to ride them we were On our way! to my house which was brown when all of the other houses weredifferent colods for some reason. ig so i could fond it easier. but then i went inside and my dad was playing a really weird lego game where you had to like mix the characters. and he was like “look look” to me and the guy and he mixed the characters. whoch were ashley from resident evil as a duck and someone other disney characted i dont demember and it cams out as sally duck. but the graphics were actually cool it showed like a pod thing and all the different lego sets the characters design was taken from on the screen and thwn it went green and they jumped out. but sally duck literally had an. erm. a yk. that you could see when she jumped and i thought i was just tweaking but the brown hair guy (who was still there btw?? just watching?? who are you?????? )was like “um what was that.” and i was like “i dont even know. i dont even know”

tired of creepy hotels

scary level - 5/12

i was in like a hotel thing on vacation wiyh my parents and it was completely normal untill it randomly got scary. like the staff was trying to make it scary by giving us these cupcakes with like realistic hearts and blood and tenticles on it??? idk if it was real or just like made but immediately we were like “hell naw he he hell naw” and we started packing up to leave but we werent even scared we were just really pissed off. we were like “omg ofc they did ofc they had to start making everything scary” erm

how could they

scary level - 200/12

had a dream last night and i only remember the very end when i was walking down the middle of a street to somewhere idk where and in this dream i was in love w sematary like irl obviously. but he was my age and went to my school. and it was like the early 90s i think. i remember the whole dream i wanted him so anywwy i was walkibg down the street and he came up to me and was like “hey do u wanna like meet at a diner later or something” and i was like “omg yeah… 🤭” and it was weird bc in the dream i still knew he was sematary but it was like different somehow. i dont remember if he was still famous or not. i think he was but idk. but i went home and asked my parents if i could go but i lied abt it just being my bestie and they said no. and i kept trying to convince them bc this was sematary and i also didnt have his number so he would think i just didnt want him and left him alone but they kepy saying no and not letting me go and i got so pissed off at them i woke up on purpose

rice purity

scary level - 3/12

the only part i remember was that i was dating big t and i was talking to my bestie (idk who it was) about something while sitting at a desk in their room and he was laying on the bed next to us and idk what we said but he was like sarcastically saying i didnt love him and i was like “you are goofy boy” and i held his hand and turned back around to keep talking to my bestie while still holding his hand and i remembee thinking like now i can mark the “held hands romantically” box on the rice purity test and the whole thing was like SO REAL…. it fr felt like it happened im so acrerd other part of my dream i got my finger bit off by a really big black cat because i tried to go up to it but i ran to it so when it was attacking me i was just like “i deserve this i know i deserve this” but it was weird because it didnt eevn bite my finger it scratched my arm and hand and then my finger was randomly bit off

royal secret agent?

scary level - 2/12

i had supernatural powers and connections to the royal family?? amd there was a game me and i yhink the prince played aong wiyh other people i dont remember and it looked like that one marvel game stampylongnose played in maybe 2018 like you were some superhero and you coukd run around in a base underground. everything outside it looked like that one roblox camping game but inside itvwas futureistic and idk what you did but alot of people liked it. anyway i could possess things irl and i had missions like the queen wuld tell me to do something and i would be like “okay” and the one mission i remember i took over like a clock radio on the oldest person on earths shelf and was like “im from the future im here to warn you of something” because when i took over an object it like came to life. and she got really angry and scared and idk what happened after that but i was on trial irl for domething i dont remember but ik it was related to that mission. amd it was like a disney movie or smth everyone in the room was cheering for me like rooting for me to win the case and then the judge ruled that i wasnt guilty and everyone cheered. then i checked my email on my school laptop and XXXX messaged me saying something about her man idk i remember she typed a weird border around it. but around the whole email like yk. and i just responded “i just won a court case (japanese radish emoji)” and then closed my laptop and continued celebrating my win

H i guess

scary level - ???/12

H randomly cam wup to me in school and said like “im ready to actually start talking to you now like ive wanted too but i couldnt” and i was like “um okay” and then we went to this weird place that was like some kind of vacation thing but he was giving me the ick everyday i dony exactly remember what he did but he was like theater kid overly sensitive overly happy like yk. and i was like “um.” but i dont think i did anything abt it. ans then the dream switxhed to another one where i was on my schools bleachers bwcause i was graduating i guess?? and my old bestfriend was with me and we were like matching princess outfits? and when we went up to the main stage the announcer lady was like “um that section isnt supposed to go” even though she said we were like um. and it was really confusing but i dont remember id we figured it out later. but ik there was something crazy going on there were like horrifying creatures at some point but i dont rememebrr anuthing about that. i think the world might have been ending at one poiny but i fr dont know

grunk meetup

scary level - 1/12

i went to some stadium with my mom for idk what (also for some reason i was like 11 and grunk was like 15 idk. idk) but we left after like 5 minutes and somwhow i knew tgc would be there and i really wanted grunks signature obviously so i ran out and then i actually did catch up with them but for some reason only asked for grunk and also somehow tanner knew and tapped him on the back and i got him to sign my shirt with an orange crayola marker that he pulled out of nowhere but right before he signed it i woke up in a cold sweat

abandoned house

scary level - 6/12

so there was this big abandoned house by my wchool wnd one day a tree fell on it, and for some reason i decided to go inside and it was like a whole different world?? like a pixleated game with rainbow hallways, 2d shadow creatures with red eyes, hallways spanning like 2 miles long with doors and elevators lining them, a girl with a clock for a head that lives in a tree, a lady who thought she was a superhero living in an abandoned arcade, and when i went in i had to wear a mask ig bc thwre were so many molds?? but you had to get to the secret world through a hole that was either in the bedroom or the bathroom? and i had to go back to the house bc the day before i went in WITHOUT a mask but it was weird bc it was like a video game like i had the 3 kinds of mold on the side of my screen bug i had beat 2 of them by doing snth but now i had to go back and find the cure to the last one before i died, and when i was in the arcade the superhero lady taked to me aboyut something?? buy it was really like deep and beautiful in the dream and then j was back to the real world and when i went back to show someone it the door was locked with a videogame countdown on it that said 10 hours

this one makes me sad for no reason

scary level - 8/12

so i was kidnapped or smth by these 2 guys and forced to do these puzzle things?? like they had this zombie thing and they let it chase me untill i escaped, like they would open 1 exit and then i would have to run before the zombie got me. and then they kidnapped this one other girl to do this big cult festival thing and we had to pole holes in a big float thing to look like lights?? and then we went on the float with big dresses on while everyone cheered for us. and then afterwards idek what exactly happened but at this point in the dream these guys were actually like our parents and the zombie wasnt thete anymlre but one of them was worried i would go back to my other family because i saw them and he got mad aboyt it

song remix

scary level - 0/12

me, my man, and XXXX for some reason ihad to make a song for some really big event bc my mom told us too but like we all 3 had to make seperate songs and my mom would bote on ome and IK ig was a remix of something but i dont remember what at all

leo

scary level - 5/12

i barely remember this but i was in this school and this exchange guy came into my class, and we started talking abt smth (he kind of looked ljke leo from the stargirl movie) and ig we had to go jnto this program where its a bunch of kids in one house and werw all allowed to kill eachother. and we were sitting in tje kitchen away from everyone and there was this old man there that ran everything and i was like “can 2 people win” and he avoided my question for 8 trillion years and then idk what he said he just kept being vauge and i was like “i have sometuing to tell you” to leo and he was like “what 😳” and i was like “nvm.....” and he was like “tell me 😄” and then one if the kids playing outside came in and started pointing. a knife at him literalky UNPROVOKED…. and i yelled at her ofc so she backed up and i was like “i love you ☹️☹️” and he qas like “omg i love you too” and then the episode we werw in. ended but the whole tume i was so scared bc i was thinking abt how it would feel to get stabbed so i looked at the next episodes trailer and i didnt get killed so i was celebrating up

what was i talking abt

scary level - 0/12

i had a dream that i had the power to turn any object into anything else and i could also turn myself into anything and my mom was worried about me gaving that power but nobody really cared. wnd then 100 years later bc i dont remember anything a guy that looked exactly like napoleon dynamite told me that his friend liked me ans i qas like “yipee!” and tjen i lost my shoe in a puddle but then i hot on the bus. and then i was on an elevator to idk where and there was this guy in the corner that was in the top corner and he was resisting the 790000 pounds of metal crashing down on him like ifk why amd my mimi wuo ews there for some reason was like “the power of an old man” and then XXXXXX rented a whole apartment and was like “me you and XXXXX should just run away and live together” ans i was like “haha sure” but i didnt rly mean it and there was napoleon, some random popular girl, XXXXXX, XXXXX, and me in the hoyel room and i was like “i miss my home i cant live here forweve” and XXXXXX looked rly sad abt that even though i said it before

moodboard links

pillow game

breaking and entering??

how could they

rice purity

abandoned house (arcade only)

this one makes me sad for no reason